My Grandma.

Hmmm...nanny's condition is gettin worst. im so worry of her.
please...........
and im scared to close my eyes.

Life's like this.

Dearie i miss u. i really2 do. i havent much time on blogging lately.besides, the internet connection was sucks. its been about three weeks we're here. lots of things happened.
u know what dearie, do i need to ask anybody to trust our leader? is it a right thing to do when somebody we called a leader, but then we shud ask others to trust him? thats nonsense. isnt it? he's a leader, so he deserve to learn more even if some people do not trust him that much. he owez deserve to learn to be better and improve his leadership skills. but, the situation is, some people didnt even want to give any apportunity to him to show his credibility as a leader. yeaa maybe he known as one of the quite 'nakal' student. thats ordinary right. but, the problem is. is anybody in this world who cannot change to be as in line they shud be?? ask yourself. dun judge people by their weakneses only. do look towords them, about how far they cud be even more better than what we expect them to be.

and, shud we trust another people, and give all the leader's duty or responsibility to others who we often to work with? just bcoz we trust that person and we like to work with them. and we think that only them who deserve to take over the responsibility. is it so right? but at the same time we still have a leader who owez deserve it? this is what i called as unfair. anybody. can u answer it for me.

i hate the discrimination of the leader. i do really hate this kind of discrimination. bcoz for me, everybody need to learn slowly first. and do not easily influenced by the mistakes they did before, bcoz nobody who never did wrong. they owez do, but there's owez a way to improve and avoid the same mistakes to heppen again. just remember and ask ourselves, do we never did a mistake?


this is reality. think of it.

end.

not in the mood okay,,

I went to hospital yesterday. nothing change ok. and it disappointd me a loootttt...
i hope for something but it doesnt work at all.
hmmm...
my fingers seems 2 be fade up enuf 2 press all the keys. what a _______?
huuuhhh stop here.
Dearie, i love you. only you understand.

Family love.

They are really meant for me.
I can hardly breath without their support.
Their touch, love and care.
But, i cant even tell them how much i love them.
Dearie, if im gone one day.
this is the evidence that i love them much3.
Love u all. with all my life, from the bottom of my heart.
Thanks 4 owez being there for me~Achik.

my words today.

Do not pretend to be so nice in front of ppl if we are NOT behind them.
It is so jerk to be hypocrte.

Do not blame anybody else if that was our fault. We'll lost a friend then.
That was so wrong.

Tell them how much u love them today. bcoz you might miss the next day.
You dun hav time 2 tell it again if you loss them one day.

I hate posses.
Please.
We're just a human being.
Do not be soo gud. bcoz nobody is perfect!

Done.

Remind me back.

The day was juz okay, fine. I did watch my fav movie A Walk To Remember again today. Its my fav movie ever. dearie, u knw what. i was crying again n again. it doesnt really a reason for me 2 cry acttly. bcoz i often cry. but someday around last week, knew someone who remind me abt this sad story again. i watchd this movie when i was stil in scndary skul, for the first time. and i found that it was really2 attractive. it was my taste of story. only that. yes im a big fan of that such a sad movie. ppl maybe dun undrstand why do i like it. but for me, it was so special and meaningful.

Dearie, i cudnt even tell u how pain it was. but, life must go on isnt? let by gone be by gone. life is short, but it still so far to reach the real future.

"Love is just like a wind, we cant see it but we can feel it."
-Landon-

Aidil Adha.

The day comes. We clbrte it quite simple. as sabah n sarawak are not really excited of this raya haji. every year and then, the situation is owez goin 2 be d same! But, i was excited. and still hepi as i owez do.
Mama was bz preparing 4 things 2 cook. i was making a cake and helping mama abt the 'dadih'. wah, takbir hari raya....sooo touching....
oh ya. about grandma, she's doin quite well these few days. even some of her child are not around anymore, she was still strugling so hard 2 be better. Love u nanny!
Stop here then. Im kinda sleepy now.
dear diary, i'll write more tmorrow. PROMISE.